My point among all of that unnecessary ranting, was, where has my passion gone? This blog is KK's passion after all (KK is me...) but honestly, I am struggling. I have had a really long, super-tough year, just last month I had two of my Uncle's pass away - I have such fond memories of them as a child and it was a very emotional week, I am still struggling. I had also just finished Uni, with killer assignments and exams...
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I won't focus on the negative, because I hate that. I just want to get back into writing. I am waiting for that switch - the switch that always lights up that spark of inspiration, which then turns into full-blown passion, ideas, and just basic happiness.
I can't seem to find that switch though.
There is no scientific or even spiritual study on this 'switch' I tend to have. All I know (in my sole observations on my sole self) is that I always, ALWAYS get my passion, spark and drive back after a lull, but this particular lull has been the longest I have ever had.
I am tired, tense, stuck and a little worried about the future. I hope this changes.
I know I will find that switch at some point. I cannot fathom life without my passion. I am just trying to please so many other people, as well as check on others grieving for my Uncle's and their own dire situations, among other life problems, that I know I have neglected myself.
What is that other cliche quote?
'You can't pour from an empty cup, take care of yourself first.' - Unknown
Yes, I googled those exact words to get the wording right, but I did in fact already have the words right...
I really do know what I have to do to make things, even the slightest bit better, yet, well that switch really does help.
Boy, I really hope this makes sense,
KK
